i don’t think anyone understands the level of happy i am right now. i am just so so so so so so god damn happy. i’m done. i made it. i made it through freshman year of college in a new city away from all my family and friends. i jumped into a major i knew nothing about, a major that was only once a doodle and scribble-filled hobby. i did this, all by myself. i actually did it.
i know to a lot of people it’s “just college” and it’s a “part of life” and i’m “at that age when i should be living by myself”, but i can honestly say i’m actually really proud of myself. i pulled through, i didn’t give up even when i wanted to drown in my pain and sorrows. i did it.
and now it’s time to pack my things, say goodbye to the city, and start on another journey, an adventure. i don’t know where i’m going or what exactly i’m going to do, but i do know that if i can get through freshman year of college, i can do anything i set my mind to. i just need to push myself, experiment, let myself go every once in a while, and expose myself to the world.
this isn’t going to be easy and i’ll fall multiple times, probably more than i imagine, but i’m going to make it. i’m not expecting anything. i’m not going to set some magical goal. i’m just going to go for it and whatever happens, happens. it’ll be rough, it’ll be tough, and not every day is going to be rainbows and sun. but it’ll be worth it.
here you go jieun. it’s time. this is it.